Tuesday, February 14, 2012
Forgetting to Blush
And I remembered...
Mary took a pint of nard and poured it on Jesus' feet and wiped his feet with her hair. And the house was filled with the fragrance of perfume.--John 12:3
Mary did not measure the perfume she used. She did not stop short of extravagant love in wiping Jesus' feet. She didn't think first of what the others present in that room might think or how they would receive her actions. Neither did she do it to poke them, to remind them of their own failings.
She simply loved her Lord. She could do nothing less.
We are taught how to talk to people about Christ. We are given phrases, even whole scripts with proofs and logical argument. We are told to prepare our testimony so that we will know what to say when we have an opportunity.
I am beginning to think that we have got it backward. Spiritual lockjaw is not an obstacle to be overcome. It is the result of shallow love.
I know this because of my love for my husband. When we walk into a room, I am proud to walk visibly beside him, to hold his hand, to praise him, even to embrace him if the opportunity presents itself. I do not think twice about this. It is pure joy. I never measure its cost.
When I measure the cost of my love for Christ, I do so because my love for Him love lacks depth.
I say that Jesus is my Lord, my life, my deepest love. I really do say this. But, in the clinch, I don't act like it.
I must come to Christ without artifice, just loving Him out of the richness of our intimacy, an intimacy even deeper than that I share with my husband. If this love, this intimacy, exists in private, I will not measure it in public. Its fragrance will fill every room I enter, every situation He brings.
In the end, I lack not the courage to testify about my God. I lack a love true enough and deep enough to banish the idea that expressing love for my God takes any courage at all.