Some circumstances just stand out in life. Like signposts punched into the crossroads of days, they mark places we don't forget.
One of the markers in my life came from my sweet stepmother Maggie. While my father suffered from Alzheimer's, getting progressively sicker and more difficult and unpredictable, she served him patiently and with almost seamless love. It cost her, and she grew thin from it, but somehow, the weariness rarely showed on her face. She smiled and comforted with hardly any visible personal distress.
One day, when I asked her how she was doing, she took my hands, looked me in the eye, and said, "I don't ever want to be anywhere but here." Years later, I still find that absolutely amazing. It seems like I spend so much of every day's space thinking about somewhere else.
I confess impatience with life. It's not just that life brings trouble. It's that life is so often so darned, well, ordinary. And I am willing to do the mundane, but in the process, I sure expect something significant and enlarging and ALIVE. But life doesn't work that way.
When the woman saw that the fruit was good for food and pleasing to the eye and desirable for gaining wisdom, she took some and ate it.--Genesis 3:6
Eve had the same problem as I do.
I constantly look here and there for something better than what I have, thinking that life is bigger than what lies right at my feet. But God has already shown me the path of life. He says so.
These are the days of my life. Right here. Right now. Just as they unfold, the beautiful and the mundane. If I don't live them, waiting for something different, I will not only miss the grand and lofty, I will miss everything.
These days, every one of them, are gifts from God. I need to live them, expecting beauty not because of what the days bring, but because of who God is. The wonder of days, after all, does not come from their own unfolding hours; it comes through God's ordination.
Days have beauty simply by virtue of their creation by God. That is why I rejoice and am glad in them.
I have come so that they may have LIFE and have it to the full.--John 10:10 (my emphasis)
I do not ever have to wait one more minute for life to begin. It races by second upon second. I spend it as I talk or write or love. I also spend it while I grumble or argue or look around somewhere else. Life is my Lord's wonderful gift, unwrapping itself with each breath.
Breathe in, breathe out. Live. Now.
After he returned from his adventures, Ulysses sat by his still hearth wondering what to do next. Getting older includes reflection upon life lessons we've learned and discernment about what comes next, but life is meant to be lived. We have become wiser than we think and we are meant to use the wisdom we've gained. Whether philosophy or observation, discovery or poetry, this is a depository not only for passive thought or memory, but a springboard for action. Life is more than breathing.
So often I see myself living anywhere but where I want to live, near my children, Dan, my favorite church and yet I am constantly taking positions 3000 miles away. Am I living in the fish like Jonah not listening to God - or am I where God wants me to be and how do I know.
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful post...so inspirationl..so very very true. I love where you say we can expect beauty every day because of who God is. God bless. Renee from
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Absolutely beautiful, and lesson we all have to relearn over and over again. Thank you for sharing the reminder in such a lovely way. ~Lori
ReplyDeleteyes, yes. and that is the whole "theme" behind my blog title. only here. only now. it is all we really have, for we are promised no more. and i want to make the most of every minute. they are gifts.
ReplyDeleteenjoyed this sharing.
steph
your post today makes me think...
ReplyDeleteYou are right! Each day is a precious gift from God. If we take the time to look around us we will see the beauty He has provided.
ReplyDeleteAbundant life! I'm working on contentment. I truly have so much. My husband just returned from Africa and my heart was weeping over the little that so many of them have. I want abundant life -- not an abundance of "things."
ReplyDeleteI know what you mean. We are to experience contentment in what God provides but, at the same time, yearn for more. I think, though, that He means more of Him, not more stuff, or more comfort, or more of the world. The journey down that road requires constant reminders.
DeleteGod is consistently reminding me to live in the season that He has me in. :)
ReplyDeleteVisiting from On Your Heart Tuesdays. So glad I read your post. It is beautiful. I watched my mother care for my grandmother with Alzheimer's. It looks as if I may deal with the same thing with my mother. She lives by us now, and I don't want to miss a single one of these days right now. But I'm with you, so often I'm looking ahead to something else--missing the beauty of now. You did a great job with this post. So well written. Blessings!
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